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Grace’s third grade class How-To reports. Grace’s report is the green and gold PowerPoint.

Grace heads back to school tomorrow, our holiday break has flown by. This afternoon I tucked a book she received at school before break from a friend away on her bookshelf and thought about how excited Grace will be to back in the swing of things tomorrow.

This year at school Kevin and I have been so excited to find Grace’s work hung up in the hallway with the work of the rest of her 3rd grade regular ed class. Her being included on the wall a visual symbol of her inclusion in the class. At Grace’s conference this fall her teacher told us a few stories of how kids interact with Grace in her class. She also told us that no matter what she is teaching up front when Grace enters the room the class greets her, and when she exits the room they all say goodbye. She wasn’t mad about it in any way either. She more chuckled in acceptance that this is part of the class culture. I saw this in action when I helped at Grace’s holiday party. The “happy holidays” as Grace left the room at the end of the party was so loud. My eyes filled with tears for just a second as we picked up scraps of snowman craft and wrapping paper.

At conferences the teacher mentioned just casually how their class operates as a family. She said that they often talk about how Grace has perseverance. That she has things to overcome, but keeps going. Along with perseverance Grace has brought conversations to the classroom about patience. They have evidently talked about the fact that all through their lives classmates will encounter people who don’t move and think quickly as they would like. Patience isn’t just a kid skill, it’s one grown-ups need to work on too.

When she asks for volunteers to read to Grace she always has too many hands raised.

A few of the girls in her class just that day had turned in stamps that they had earned for positive behavior in order to have the opportunity to help another class. They had asked specifically to come and be with Grace in the special ed room.

I don’t mean to romanticize inclusion, or Grace, or anything by writing any of this. I’m not always even 100% sure about how I feel about inclusion or even if I know what “right” inclusion looks like.

What I do know, because the teacher told me, is that Grace’s “how-to” topic, (the title of this post) was selected for her by her classmates because there was a classroom discussion about what her how-to topic should be. They landed on the idea that Grace makes them smile. I took the picture included with the blog because I was so delighted to see her power point how-to up on the wall with all the hand-written how-to’s.

I am happy to know that Grace brings a smile to the face of some of her classmates. I am happy to know that she is a member of that family. I am happy that her work is on the wall.

We tried to thank the teacher. We tried to tell her that we know she sets the tone and that we are grateful for the tone that she’s set. It’s a difficult gratitude to convey. I’m so hopeful that she got it, even a little, because being on the wall, part of the family, is in actuality a very big deal.

Joy

 

 

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IMG_2676Today was Grace’s last day of second grade. When I got home from work I put her braces on her legs and took her outside to get a last day of school pic. She likes to walk more than stand still, and it was just me her and Graham so I did the best I could. I was so excited for her – so happy she was officially a third grader – she smiled at me as we talked about it.

About 45 minutes later I was unpacking what she’d brought home from school. The school supplies we had so carefully picked out at the beginning of the year were all in a sack. They came home untouched. The crayons that had looked beautiful at the beginning of the year and somehow held promise of all there was to come were not used. The markers were unopened. The pencils my dad had helped me sharpen for her – still sharp and tucked in boxes that had never been opened. The three notebooks I’d sent were there. One had been used, but just a few sheets. There were markers in pristine condition, pencil boxes without a scratch, erasers that had never erased and it just made me so sad. It’s one of those things that they don’t tell you when you are a special needs parent…what should you really bring. In past years things have been used, but second grade is more academic and evidently that means we no longer need to supply her with tools for learning. I feel a little like we have been relegated to just supplying Kleenex – because that’s the stuff that Grace uses up in a classroom.

Second grade has been really hard, for a lot of reasons I can’t speak of now. I can talk about a few things. We tried out two communication devices each for 4-6 weeks, not when we had a lot of time to invest in the trials but instead when the device was available.  Both showed us that Grace can communicate and it feels cruel to set her up to use something, see and hear her, but neither was quite what she needs- so more trials to come. More systems to learn.  More waiting to communicate. One of the devices was so heavy and large we sent it back and forth to school in an IKEA big blue bag.  This was not a small undertaking or one we could take lightly.

This year Grace was more medically complex than she has been in awhile. We had to start using a catheter to empty her bladder because she was having frequent urinary tract infections. They showed both Kevin and I how to do it in less than 10 minutes and then sent us on our way with a bag of supplies. At first it was just once a day. At first though it was very hard and very frustrating. Grace didn’t know what we were doing, we didn’t know what we were doing, and it is just not a pleasant procedure. When we were first beginning there was a Sunday morning when Grace and I had struggled to get it done. I was so frustrated with myself, with her, with the situation. We got to Sunday School that morning and we were warmly greeted by the couple who were teaching Grace’s class. I only had one foot in the classroom and I just lost it. I couldn’t bear to take my girl into that classroom with all of those beautiful children who hadn’t had to be catheterized by their mother that morning. So I told the teacher we’d be back and I took Grace back out into the hallway. Another woman saw me crying, brought me two chairs and Kleenex, but didn’t say a word. After a few minutes I calmed down, I took Grace into the room and we did Sunday School. It was a horrible point for me though. We now cath her every 4 hours while she’s awake – we are better at it, she is more patient, but it’s still not pleasant.

This year we had a hard time keeping Grace healthy – we would joke that somehow second grade was more germy.  We kept her home a whole week when she was diagnosed with the flu. We kept upping her seizure meds bit by bit because the sickness caused an increase in seizures no one liked. The epileptologist recommended we find an immunologist for Grace. We tried to find one in Iowa, but there wasn’t one who could/would take her on. So, we drove to Minnesota. They did some testing and it turns out that Grace doesn’t have a great immune system. The immunologist was amazed that she isn’t sick more. All the vaccines we have given her over the years – trying our best to protect her and care for her – part of what we learned is that many of them didn’t take. They offer her no protection because her body has no way to “grab onto” the vaccine to develop the necessary antibodies to provide her with immunity. We’ve started monthly infusions, in Minnesota, to help boost her immune system. I find myself afraid for her- for the smallest bug to get to her – all the while knowing there is no bubble for me to put her in. She has to live her life.

This year there was a new home health nurse taking care of Grace. He’s done a fantastic job running up Grace’s steep learning curve. Most weeks he is with her 5 days a week, 9 hours a day.

Grace had an aide for the first time this year at school. Two different ones actually.   They had to learn about her, and serve as her voice, and I don’t know them well, so I tried as much as I could for them to have the information they needed to be Grace’s voice.

We didn’t hear as much about peer interaction. A few names are mentioned in her communication book, but the mentions seem far apart.

In first grade she’d walked clear across the building by herself to get to her first grade classroom. For a good chunk of the first part of this year she for some reason would not walk the 10 feet into her 2nd grade classroom. This was resolved when some of the things outside the door were moved – but amazingly it took a long time to figure that out!

I struggled to understand what kids are supposed to be learning in 2nd grade, so I didn’t even feel like I could talk to Grace about it.

I have officially cried in the principal’s office now. They weren’t polite tears; they were the big ones where she had to get me Kleenex.

I’m so glad for Grace to be done with this year. For her to have a chance for something more.

There was also an envelope among her things. It was a note from the woman who buckled Grace into the bus every morning. She wrote how much she enjoyed knowing Grace and that Grace was a large part in inspiring her to go into special education. Which is wonderful. Grace’s special ed teacher is pivotal in our minds.  We go to her for counsel about a variety of things. I live in fear that she will leave the elementary school before Grace is ready to leave it. As a special ed teacher she walks this line of school politics, parent wishes, general ed teachers, and physical complex needs of her students that I wouldn’t wish on anyone. But when I hear her use her teacher voice on Grace and see Grace respond I’m so grateful that she does it. Not just for Grace but for the others in her room, and for us too.

So some good did come out of unpacking that bag. But the crayons, markers, notebooks, pencils and such are still on my dining room table, because frankly I don’t know what to do with them. They seem dirty somehow. But maybe we can make them beautiful again this summer. Find a purpose for them to help Grace grow in only the amazing way she can.

Joy